I brought home a Japanese cold virus, which is quite a feat, since itís the culture there to wear a mask if you have a cold. Although, I must admit, there isnít a lot of hand-sanitizer around, either. Masks help you identify the considerate sick people, but not the inconsiderate sick ones.
Adam got sick before me, and then I started feeling bad on the plane, after about 14 or 15 hours of travel. Sometimes itís better to just not keep track. Anyway, work tomorrow. I still have a bit of jetlag.
Iím not too interested in going to work, but who is? My brother and his girlfriend were off for the holidays the first week I was there, and they took off for the second week. Theyíve already gone back to work.
They plan to leave Japan in April. They both applied for teaching jobs in Turkey.
Adam is still in Japan for the week, and I could use the week alone, too. I donít know if anything beneficial will come out of it. I think Iíve drawn some kind of weird conclusion that a mark of normalcy is to be able to accept the regular proximity of others. Although, considering how most modern relationships donít last, are distant, miserable or thereís some kind of ďunderstandingĒ I wouldnít say that my definition of ďnormalcyĒ is common. But, I tend to think of ďnormalĒ as meaning ďhealthy,Ē not ďaverage.Ē
So, off Iíll go tomorrow, to continue my life.
I think winter sucks. So does the location of my work office.
Is it all about perspective? It is to a large extent. I just canít adjust my perspective under most of my current circumstances. Thereís too much static in every day life.
I always have a rushed, urgent feeling whenever thereís another presence around. Iím super-sensitive to any movement that is made, and Iím almost never ever alone anymore.
I wish I didnít get sick, though. Thatís obviously going to hinder anything that I decide that I want to do this week. My health has been so poor due to the amount of stress Iíve been under and that hasnít helped me one bit.
I think things will be good again, though. I have hope. Sometimes Iím even optimistic.
Iíd definitely like to change my job to something else. The other option is to just not have a job, thatíd be good, too.
I looked at the website for the Tokyo campus of Adamís university. He could potentially transfer there after heĎs done with his coursework, here. The only degree they offer that is taught in English is a MA in ESL. Iím not really interested in teaching ESL. Moving there probably wouldnít do much to enhance his studies (except improve his Japanese). Iím not sure that moving there would help me much, either. I did discover that it is a lot easier to start a business there and it seems to be a lot easier to be self-employed, than it is here.
I bet there are a lot of opportunities that exist here that I donít know about, too.
I learned to snowboard in Japan, for real. Before, my version of snowboarding was tumbling down the mountain with occasional bouts of standing. Now I want to snowboard some more, so that will probably change my winter around a little bit.
|Monday, Jan. 11, 2010 at 4:13 AM|